fan out - fan in

plz dont think in deep regarding fan in - fan out title . Just gave a random thought .

I imagined my heart as made of rooms . One room for whom i became a fan .

So, after watching genelia in happy movie . She entered and wallpapers changed ( on original wall and also cell phone wall) . She was like a always-babbling angel. My friend shah is a crazy fan of her. He made his email id as 'shahgene' looking wierd but sounds good. Then after months , the wall papers were torn apart into pieces . Some thing happened and started disliking her. . . Genelia out Samanthaprabhu in . .

If you happen to look closely her action , you will see her moving her head sideways with small angles- when delivering a sentimental one(its cute) . More over she played roles better. And i started thinking of changing the wallpaper with samantha's . . .

Just yesterday fortunately saw nithya menon 's profile . . Samantha out and nithya menon in . . .


Pschologically it is a trash . So.got rid of wallpapers , downloaded BUDDHA's wall. After all peace has to come from with-in , not with out .

Ula ula

I don't know what I'm writing. Yes, you read it right. I don't know . I'm writing 'coz i want to write something here . Because long long ago I wrote a post. And I want to write some more . What should i write here? Do I want fame by promoting my own blogs and get appraisal for my good writing skills ? or Simply I m writing here because this is my space. I think I should go for the second one.

I feel like I 've lost energy in my left hand after typing the first paragraph. But still I'm not going to give up . Yeah! Naruto told me so not to.

I'm getting angry for no reason. I hate and I like persons at the same time. Ha, But one thing is sure. I'm loosing my sulky side of mine. Of course that has got a reason behind. When we are through our youth, emotional brain becomes weak because some neurons die in Prefrontal cortex , I read it. Yesterday, I came across a quote by Buddha -"To understand everything is to forgive everything " . So thinkable quote , I feel. I got my posture back.

Where the hell I'm getting into? I ain't got any idea.
Every question has got an answer and so do problem with solution. Is it real ??

I feel like i'm living a life with full of illusions . No no , I was. I 'm not right now. I guess.
Acquiring love was my first priority but not now.