Passion check?

It's easy to go around saying, I am passionate about that or this. But I think with time everything changes. I entered a field know as Value Investing. It is a school of like thinkers about stock market investing. Mostly I got to know because I wanted to become rich. And too soon. I say to myself and others that I am passionate about value investing. Sometimes, I question myself about that. Recently I had a conversation with a friend of mine, Dheeraj, whom I met at Badminton club here at Shaik Pet.

That time some how while talking we discussed about his camera, Sony, I don't know the model. I asked him "Did you buy that?", he said yes and simultaenously said "See, it is easy to claim that we are passionate about some things, like say photography. But in my view, first that person should take more than 10,000 pictures and if that person still feels the same way towards photography, then he's passionate.

So, I reflected there and then for a moment. Because you can find wisdom everywhere and you just need to grab and reflect on it. I found one right then.

If I am passionate about investing, then first I should start researching about at least 100 companies. Then I can know about what's what. 

Image

Till yesterday I blamed my parents for expecting things from me entirely through their point of view. They wished I had done an IT job just like the others did. They talked to others as if I have failed by choosing finance as my career. I blamed for not being satisfied with my brother's salary and his decisions. I even advocated my opinions with others in a way that parents should not force and all.

But now I think I was wrong. They didn't think of me as a strong man so that they could have told others that their son would succeed in the thing he likes to do. They didn't think like that because I did not project the image of that sort of a guy. It's that simple. They didn't act on their own. They acted after thinking through the image which I have shown.

Now that I understand Varun s words. Nobody cares about what you think. It's the image which you project that's important. And the quote from my favorite movie ," batman begins", ' It's not who you are underneath, it's what you do that defines you'.

So true. Always I should think what image others are getting.

Destiny

I am not a believer of fate and destiny. I don't like that idea at all which takes away the control from you. But I like to have that option in my case. Every time I get to choose what to do , with prior thinking about the situation at hand. This control is not the overall type that I decide what to happen. I just want to have a sense that decides what to do and what not do.

But there were some situations in which someone said to my face " No you are not that type" " You can't do that" "I m sure it's not going to be you". I used to get angry at such statements. There is something in me which desperately wanted to prove them wrong. I wanted to. Now I think they are right after all.

People said to me that I resemble my father. I thought it was a compliment but later understood that it was a warning. I now think that the reason for me being not so social is not the surrounding s which I was brought up ; not my student peer group but it was genetic. My father. On listening to my brother and my mother about my father's past actions, I see myself in him. I seem to just replicate him in ways. The soft nature , the sensitive behavior, not so social type, ego.. etc. I now feel that may be I am doomed with this nature in me.

I don't know what to do. May be learn to adapt and transform. That's the best I could do to learn on my own.