Genunine fan?

What is to be a fan of an actor/actress?
Is it becoming biased?
Or they watch anything just because that person is being cast in that movie?
It is obsession. I guess.
What is actually meant by a fan or liking merely! Is it just carried away by what do you call charisma or acting skills?  Becoming-a-fan idea should come from with in , that has to be your thought, isn't it? It should not be by your surrounding environment of pals or mates. I have seen people . They persuade themselves by behaving as the particular actor's fan. Of course, even i went through that.

In school my group friends are all fans of pawan kalyan(telugu movie star!). so did I.
I thought then, if i had had friends who are ntr(Anti-actor) fans, i would have become one of those,is not it quite simple? One must think of his interests. May not be stated, but self realizing  is good, else one can be carried away by anything.

This quote is a good one- If you do not stand for something, you'll fall for anything.

Being a fan doesn't mean biased. The reason behind may be - one can't accept the fact/ or they went too far away so that they can't make up again or they 've become mentally aged that caused laziness to their brains.

I've to learn  and be open .

Power not to Give-up

The power of not giving up that matters. I said to my friend don't give up soon, i am not advising you but sharing what I have experienced.

You know, I think kinda I give up too early. So, better you don't give up so soon like me.

He(my friend) posed me a question that is rather typical . If you know that you are going to lose anyway, then what will you do then?

Still won't give up , huh?

 I froze with thinking there.

Then a memory of naruto episode came across in my mind!

 When he fought neji, he was not thinking whether he wins or loses. He was thinking of the next plan, his next move or rather next attack. Everybody knew he was going to lose back then, He didn't give up because he never thought of losing .

That's what the difference I guess. When it comes to me , my neurons begin thinking like what happens when i lose .

So, automatically some neurons won't work for me to plan the next move which is important. I should not think like that.

 I keep on thinking of the next step , which has to be better implemented by me than implemented by yesterday-me. This one of ways to get Power not to Give-up.

Slavery's origin : Unability to think , sort out and reason.

Slavery prevails when one loses belief in oneself and one exploits the belief-loser , may not be by commanding but by soothing words also. First comes the thinking part.

It appeared to me that i was going into that way. Recently,I started working in religare franchisee as a dealer or may be an operator as per my owner. I don't know any subject and i din't have any practical experience when I took up this one. As an amateur , i behaved like that. Of course , i'm not a charlton type guy. So, any one can understand by seeing my face that this guy is so new to this job and he doesn't know anything. Of course, I was learning. My boss took the advantage of this and he used me to do office boy's work . At first , it was quite embarrassing for me to do like that. But,eventually got habituated for me. Of course ,I din't carry any grudge on him. That was my fault after all,isn't it? Yes, I should have told him before, i'm not doing that kinda shit . I 've taken this job hoping to do as dealer not this boy's work. I thought and reasoned out myself .

May be I used to give more respect like he granted that job so that I owe him my life.
May be I wasn't thinking properly when a question was posed to me, so that I gave a doubtful look , they concluded themselves this guy needs more practice.
May be my emotions took control of my situation, why? May be I was feeling more that they should feel I'm worthy and i deserve this job.That's why I couldn't think.

I couldn't bare the job , I waited for the month to pass. Waiting to taste the freedom, day dreamt of the corporate job more than twice a day.I thought to quit. And I want to tell him directly. I couldn't. I started thinking on the day I 'm writing this why I couldn't. I felt like some invisible threads attached. I felt like, I didn't get rid of that job . A part of me is feeling some fear that something might go wrong and again I wound up myself in same job. Why I was feeling like that ? A part of me thought i owe him for granting that job. May be something else.what ever, I quit that .

You'll become slave when you don't think, sort out and find reason. In my view, what ever the situation may be give your brain a try that means one should think of. Don't think of owing emotionally, take it as a business thing.


I find myself things in myself. From this, I'm giving over respect, of course it's good some may exploit the situation and i can't bear it afterwards. So, I should n't overreact and shouldn't give more respect at the first . Observe and understand the things going around. And, don't be soft to anybody one should change according to the situation , if you can't , learn how to change.