A reply to a lesson

Dear girl to whom I got infatuated for 2 to 3 months or an year.

I like to store and remember those times. You as a matter of fact , even I was confirmed that the reason for my infatuation was my loneliness. But I assure you it wasn't. I m sure. I have not seen you , but why did I felt so close. May be I know partly. You know we all have some likes and dislikes and we tend to like some character persona. And in combination we look out for persons who have got those qualities. I was attracted to you mostly because you almost resembled my girl of choice. It just happened that you were superior form of all qualities combined. An analogy would be: If you are sitting in a restaurant and by chance you see or meet a person who is your dream person. That's what happened to me. Like you said may be it's imagination and all. But I m flattered by your character.

May be everything was just over imagination. You used to ask me whether I behave in real the same. The answer then and now was a resounding yes. I didn't try to do anything which I can't do in real.

Yes. I ve done some serious mistakes. Mostly insecurity ones. It was like I thought i wasn't gonna meet another perfect creature. But its bad. Had a hard time learning lesson. So its okay. I regarded you as a teacher and lessons learnt.

Lately , I very much understood how and why you behaved. It wasn't your fault that I was hurt. It has to be. You wrote emails before exam so that you are under impression that if you stopped makes me a diversion from my exam. But it wouldn't have happened, I m not that stupid. I observed clearly the distance increasing right from the moment you told me : let's talk in group goodreads rather than in chat window. And with your last email you just sounded my distant relative who doesnt give a damn about me and just talk purely because of what's the word cant remember, just relative sake. I hated that. That was the last thread and it was gone. Very well , but I remember this coz I will use this lesson as an analogy and will tell my future wife and kids. May be you liked the way you wanted me to be a very long distant person. As I m sure you wont be reading this , but even you read this, please dont email me.